obsesion to be a someone

When i felt that person, had anything compared to me
When i felt i always wanted to have what was owned by her
At that time also i felt, I did not deserve to get it..

I felt grudge
But in my heart, still had the wish to struggle get the best
maybe not now, i get it
but sometimes, in some place, i will get it

keep struggle,. and do the best
for my live